A Course in Self-Love

Do You Feel Stuck in Patterns That Hold You Back?

You’ve tried positive thinking, self-help books, or meditation—but something still keeps pulling you back into doubt, shame, or self-criticism. You sense there’s more to self-love than affirmations and wish you had a clear, practical way to truly nurture yourself.

You’re Not Alone

Many of us carry unrecognized patterns that quietly shape our decisions, relationships, and sense of worth. These hidden blocks are the shadows of our inner self, waiting to be understood and embraced.

Here’s the Good News

You can break free from these patterns—and it doesn’t have to be complicated.

A Course in Self Love is a beginner-friendly introduction to shadow work and inner healing. Through guided exercises, direct channeling, and practical tools, you’ll learn how to:

• Recognize the patterns that are keeping you stuck

• Cultivate compassion for yourself and your inner experiences

• Begin making choices aligned with your authentic self

• Experience real shifts in confidence, clarity, and peace

What You’ll Learn in A Course in Self-Love

This beginner-friendly channeled course is made up of six transformative lessons, each designed to help you reconnect with your body, your soul, and your inherent worth:

1. The Spaces of You
   Discover the different layers of your being—your mind, your body, and your soul—and learn to identify where you carry tension, self-doubt, and emotional blocks. This lesson helps you cultivate awareness of the spaces that need your love the most.

2. Addressing Soul Fragmentations with Love
   Learn how to recognize the parts of yourself that have been lost, suppressed, or disconnected over time—even across lifetimes. Through guided channeling, you’ll practice gentle techniques to reunite with these fragments and bring yourself back to wholeness.

3. Writing a New Story
   Rewrite the narratives that no longer serve you. This lesson teaches you how to release self-limiting beliefs and replace them with stories that honor your worth, your desires, and your soul’s purpose.

4. Understanding Your Why
   Go beyond surface motivations to explore the deeper reasons behind your thoughts, behaviors, and choices. By understanding your “why,” you’ll gain clarity on patterns that have kept you stuck and how to move forward with intention.

5. Loving Yourself When You Fall
   Develop practical strategies for self-compassion in moments of failure, doubt, or shame. Learn how to respond to yourself with love and gentleness, so setbacks become opportunities for growth rather than sources of self-criticism.

6. Unconditionally Loving All of You
   Integrate the practices from the course to embrace every aspect of yourself—your light and your shadow, your strengths and your vulnerabilities. This final lesson guides you to embody a deep, unwavering self-love that supports your healing, clarity, and empowerment.

By the end of the course, you’ll have a clear path to nurturing self-love, embracing your authentic self, and breaking free from patterns that no longer serve you.

Why This Course Is Different

• Beginner-Friendly: No prior experience in shadow work or energy healing required.

• Direct Voice Channeling: Guidance comes through Maricar and the Guides in real time, offering clarity and insight that feels personal.

• Safe, Supportive Space: Explore your shadows with compassion and expert facilitation.

• Practical Takeaways: Walk away with tools you can use immediately to nurture self-love and inner peace.

This Channeled Class is for you if ...

I didn’t set out to become a spiritual teacher or a direct voice channel. In fact, for most of my life, I was determined to succeed in the conventional world.

I grew up as a first-generation Filipino-American in a working-class family and attended Title 1 schools. I struggled academically in ways no one understood—including me. I flunked out of college twice before discovering that undiagnosed ADHD and dyslexia had been profoundly affecting the way I learned. For years, I interpreted those struggles as evidence that I simply wasn’t smart enough or wasn’t working hard enough.

But I refused to give up.

Through persistence, trial and error, and an enormous amount of work, I eventually earned a bachelor’s degree in Economics and Accounting from the University of California, Santa Barbara and a master’s degree in Economics from San José State University. I went on to work in transfer pricing at PricewaterhouseCoopers and became a tenure-track economics professor.

By conventional measures, I had succeeded.

But inside, something still wasn’t right.

I kept chasing the next achievement, the next degree, the next professional milestone, believing that if I could just accomplish enough, I would finally feel like I was enough. I pursued therapy, group therapy, energy work, and other approaches to healing. Yet beneath everything was a persistent, difficult-to-explain ache—a sense of cognitive dissonance between the life I had built and the life my soul seemed to be asking of me.

Then everything changed.

My spiritual awakening deepened during the pandemic. What started with hearing the voices of my Guides, Xavier and Seraphim, became a four-year Dark Night of the Soul. I was forced to confront the patterns beneath my achievement, avoidance, self-abandonment, shame, and burnout—and to understand myself at a depth I had never experienced before.

During this process, I became aware of more than 100 of my own past lives and began integrating fragmented aspects of myself that I understood as carrying patterns across lifetimes.

This was not a bypass around my problems. It was the opposite.

I had to face the parts of myself I had spent a lifetime trying to outrun.

And slowly, something changed.

As I integrated those fragmented aspects of myself, I experienced more self-love, more internal stability, and more flow. I began to understand that many of the things I had labeled as personal failures were actually invitations to come back into relationship with myself.

Eventually, I understood why my life had unfolded the way it had.

The student who flunked out of college twice.
The professional who could succeed but hated her career.
The woman who kept achieving but never felt like she was enough.
The seeker who tried nearly everything to heal.
The person who didn't believe she was psychic—even when the universe kept trying to show her.

They were all part of the same journey.

Today, I am a conscious direct voice channel for Seraphim and Xavier, and I use the guidance I receive to help others navigate their own awakening in a practical way.

I don't teach this work because I read about it. I teach it because I had to live it.

And that is why I created A Course in Self-Love.

This course is for the person who has already done some of the work but still feels that something deeper is keeping them stuck—for the high achiever, sensitive, seeker, or emerging wayshower who knows there is more beneath the surface and is willing to meet it.

You don't have to take my word for everything I believe.

But if you've been feeling the same ache I once felt, I invite you to explore the teachings, see what resonates, and discover what your own inner knowing has been trying to tell you.